Letters: Good Bye Winnie

My Sister wrote me a funny letter the other day with an old writing set she had forgotten about, she thought it was highly appropriate! It did make me smile.

Hmmm She knows me too well!  I was crocheting when her letter came through the letter box :)


Tonight is the last night Winnie will be pooing away in my bag, I have had my dinner and I am allowed to have a piece of toast before I go to sleep.  Then I will wake up really early and drink my Pre Op drinks at 6.00am.  I will then make my way to the hospital and the surgical admissions lounge.


I have been very upset for the past couple of days and have done a lot of crying, I admit.  I am very scared, I can't deny, but I am also positive and geared up for this.  I don't expect it to be easy but I will try to remember that God wouldn't give me anything I can't handle.  I have put my faith in God.  I pray I will continue to have the strength to cope with the operation and what may come because of it.  I feel very anvious and nervous but I am also looking forward to having the last part of my disease removed from my body.


Worrying about tomorrow, will only take away the Peace of today.


L x

J-Pouch surgery in one week!! EEeekk!!

I knew these three weeks would fly by and they are. Only one week now until Jpouch day.  I woke up with terrible pain in my bum today and had a lot of blood and mucous to discharge.  Once this was dealt with I was fine and enjoyed a lazy day.  I have completed my pink baby blanket, so that was very happily ticked off the list.  I have now started a project for me :) I am crocheting myself a cushion to take into hospital, I thought it would be a nice thing to have to cuddle and cheer me up.

I have been busy chatting to my friends on the Colitis  Facebook page today, its great how supportive people are.  You always come away feeling that there are people that really understand how you feel.  You also get the information you really want to hear and appreciate.

I have been slowly sorting my little flat out, as I know I wont be cleaning for a while! one of the perks.  I am getting ready practically, physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually.  Haha! No wonder I'm tired.  I feel I'm in a good place though, I am positive and upbeat and can't wait to be rid of this last bit of disease.  I'm sure I will weep when my doctor first declares me disease free.  What a journey...oh! I could officially be an X Factor contestant now...its one of the requirements.  The ability to sing is way down on the list but if you have  been on a journey your in! haha!

I am officially rambling now.  Hope your all well.

L x