A Bum Deal :(

So here it is, I’m writing it down and actually acknowledging that my bum REALLY hurts!! Apparently my doctors thought my proctitis would be fine now I’m not using my bum anymore.  I never was convinced and asked if I could do suppositories if needed.  It seems I have reached the point where I must tackle this.  I have been feeling pain and have been emptying my bum of a lot more blood than usual.  I feel upset that this is still happening but I will try and get on top of things.  Suppositories may just be the answer, but I was so enjoying leaving my bum well alone.  It really is a relentless, stubborn, nasty and cruel disease.  If I was listening to a friend saying this I would tell her, “You can’t just ignore this and think it will go away, do something about it.”  So I will heed my own advice and sort it out.  I really want it gone (my bum), sometimes I don’t even think I want a j-pouch, I just don’t want to have to make these decisions.   Oh dear! the pity party may just have arrived, oh how I hate a pity party!  I need a slap around the face, get a grip.  It’s only a sore bum, if I can cope with my colon trying to bleed me to death then I can cope with this.  I think a call to the consultant and a push for a date for surgery, or a gentle reminder that I’m still here coping with all this, is definitely in order.   Well I’m off to buy some KY!!! haha

Itis

A few weeks after my operation to remove my completely inadequate colon, my brother asked me if I was in any pain!  Bless him, I don’t think he was quite prepared or ever thought he’d hear me say very sarcastically.  “Oh yeah, apart from my rectum throbbing away at me!”  It seems if a disease or illness has got an ‘itis’ at the end of it, my body just can’t help it’s self.  So it was great when they said you have Proctitis, very typical of UC sufferers.  How wonderful, not only was my colon inflamed but my rectum also.  This led me to shock another unsuspecting person, with a remark to my surgeon just before I was being discharged home.  “I can’t wait for you to get this stupid rectum out of me!”  With a quick disbelieving look at me as if to say, did she really just say that, he then smiled.  To look at me you would never assume that this would be my reality, let alone flow out of my mouth so easily.  It’s like I’ve just said the most normal thing.   Luckily for me I do not get easily embarrassed.  I’m embarrassed by things like singing on karaoke not that I’ve done that in years, but I’m so used to pulling down my knickers for some doctor to shove a camera to infinity and beyond! I don’t bat a pethidined eyelid.   There is light at the end of that inflamed tunnel, I will soon have my next operation to remove that red rectum.  Although ironically being in stirrups for so long during my first op left me with bursitis!